15th of June, 2013

Here comes to another entry of me using handphone. I'm lazy to type on computer. Or maybe I simply don't have a mood. Usually I have mood swing throughout the day, sounds pathetic right? I can't even maintain a smile for more than an hour. ( of course la, if you can then all your muscles on your face sure full with lactic acid. ) lol wth

I don't plagiarise so I decided to write my title as 15th of June, 2013 instead of 15062013 LOL although it's just the same but to me it means something. Well, it just another ordinary Saturday after my birthday lol. Leshan is watching Mayday's concert later which is what I wanna do too. Hopefully she remembers that I asked her to record down my favourite songs of Mayday. It's kinda awkward because last time we said we wanna go together and now she is going alone as I cannot make it.Then I don't know why I got so many weird thoughts and feelings that going through my mind and kill all those brain cells by torturing the emotional nervous system. Then I think I'm creating a new system. Whatever.

Recently I'm acting so eerie and bizarre. Maybe Gemini really got a second version of personality at the dark side. Since when I believe in horoscope? Haha just a lie to make sure I feel better than what feelings that available for me to feel right now. They said being with emo is okay because it's needed to balance out the happy time. Maybe my pass is too happy? Or my happy moment hasn't come yet so I need to keep on being sad. LOL wah, then my after life definitely is an awesome one.

We always look at those bad things in our life, true. Because that bring the most effects to our life? NO, because we never realise how much happiness we already got. That day I won the hair oil from Nuffnang, hahaha so happy because my dried and frizzy hair need to be saved or I will be bald soon like what is slowly happening on my dad and uncles. OMG this is scary. Then Leshan said I'm super duper good in luck and I should be happy. But I don't think so. Not because I'm confident enough but I never enough with what I already owned. So my good luck isn't fully working though or else I will be serious lucky right now. How I hope I can split into two so I can ongoing the things I love and do the things I need to do.

Oh ya, actually I felt so sad yesterday, omg the photo I drawn yesterday which is the cake with 18 candles and a crowded background is very sarcastic to me and somehow someone still said it is nice?! Hahaha but I'm okay with it already because I'm happy enough for all the things I got. But actually I don't have any present, I meant those type of present that can be seen by bare eyes. I'm kinda pleased with what I got but human are greedy. We always expect more than what we got because hope is what keep us living or else we will just stay there and wait to die as feeling enough with our life.

Everyone has their own perspective on the definition of life. We eat, sleep, work, pee and poo for a reason. And everyone's reasons are different. They can be similar but won't be the same. We hope for different thing in our life, some hope for a good job and some look for money. ( just an example, no offence or second thought please. ) and there are pretty much different groups of others. That's why we cannot compare ourself with others. Although maybe you will say that without comparison then we will just be the same. But you don't compare with those in a different dimension.

Katy Perry sings, " comparisons are easily done once you had a taste of perfection. " so if you never satisfied with what you got yet, don't compare.

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By the way, I'm not enough with the rant, I promised not to write short entries anymore so keep your head up and concentrate on me.

Hahaha

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Once, I promised not to lie anymore. I used to believe that it's true if the lie works but turns out even it works, it's just another lie. Why lies? Because we need to do it in certain circumstances, but not all the time. But I said I'm not lying anymore as I realised the reality doesn't allow this kind of thing happen. Although I still think that it's okay if you can do it. Why?

I thought that being a truthful guy is much more better than those fakers. But then the world is changed. They rather believe in lies and think that your words are lie even they are truth that hard as diamond. It just doesn't work all the time yet in the end, it's all depending on the one who is listening to you. Just a word can confirm everything. If only you lie to say that word.

' Trust '

I doubt on it. Yet I believe it. There aren't that many choices for you, what I can say is that don't ever lie on those who trust on you because they will never lie on you in either way. Maybe you do think that they are just people that are not in your list of trustworthy or importance but you never know how life will be in the next second. Unpredictable to the max unless you wanna say you're a fortune teller. Zzz

可是我还是相信人定胜天。

Never regret for what you said, never second thought on yourself. It's done once it's spitted out.

The only choice is to think properly, some words can't be erased even with a thousands times of apologise.  Same goes to those words from the heart, they are true like steel and make sure you're confirm as steel. No matter how bad my adjectives are, I just wanna emphasise that never lie and never go wrong with what you gonna say. How will be the result? Is it depending on the other side? Or you expect everyone is just like you?

You never know.

But my reply will be, " whatever. "

Because I'm lying to my heart, as I don't wanna get hurt. But the main point is that I never succeed in lying to myself because I freaking know that I'm lying. For once in a life time, how I hope that my words are being listened and believed then replied. Ohya, please reply something legit. Hahaha just like ice cream, something inside can be felt once the outer layer melted. And a bumping heart melts everything and feels everything.

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I used a phrase recently. ' Like a fish in the market. ' I created it so I guessed you can't get what I meant with that weird phrase. Lol what I actually wanna said is a feeling that make you feel that you're someone in a second bit being abandon again in the next moment. Like the fish market, a big one cannot call the highest price but the best one. It's all on you, either you think that it worth the price, or just get a cheaper one yet thinking of the best one. Wth am I saying?

Definitely the most meaningless rant throughout this entry. LOL

Here comes to the end of my thoughts and feelings. It can be useful yet waste of time. So do you get those tiny points of views in it?

I'm cold. And eagerly want a hug from you.

Bye.

Beauty is not just skin deep ( 2 )

Hahahaha, so here goes to the part two of the ranting. Actually I have nothing to do after I quit my job, instead of wasting my life by cuddling my bolster on my bed, I did made some waffles yesterday. LOL if you followed me in instagram then you would see but nevermind la, I will add some photos at the end of this post ( simply because I'm using this Blogger app that cannot add photo in the middle of the post like what computers and laptops did ) ( or maybe I don't know how to!! ). Lol, yea, this is my second post from phone because I'm here alone again in Starbucks!! No life to the max actually. I shall get a life and stop wasting money on this kind of useless expenses which only gives me the classy feelings and makes my wallet empty. And you know what, I think everyone should do the same.

But sometimes a cup of coffee does make me feels better. And it goes the same to you.

I'm not looking at anyone this time, ( because last time when I first use my phone to blog, I commented on others who dressed in pink :O ) and some of them actually look at me, and I don't know why. Whatever.

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It was kinda bad to say that people don't look well, so I hardly say that but doesn't mean I don't. Well, you might say I'm superficial but don't tell me you don't.  And that's why beauty and everything on the surface really mean something, people don't dress beautiful just for fun and hanging all those pretty stuff on themselves just to get exercise. Lol wth am I saying?

You can say that they just wanna feel good because they feel better when they think their outfits are awesome. And I would like to say that YES, they do feel better because I did the same and you did the same damn thing too. But besides their own eyesight will fall on themselves, they are hoping others to compliment them. I don't know whether you're but I'm. Like what sometimes my friends and family said that my shirt was awesome and my hair is a freak, I do feel good, at least they look at me. WTH?!

Neh, get rid of the hair topic please, although I still don't think my previous hairstyle looked that bad!! Like what I said in part one, we cannot simply comment others who takes beauty so intensely. Just because you aren't that hold it on. So, are you holding it right now? Think about it before you make up your mind to give comment.

Besides, don't you appreciate how others dress themselves up just to meet you up? Hahaha usually I did that was for a mutual effect, the friends look and the public. LOL but then actually no one is looking at me. *cry* I don't care about it, I'm that kind of people like what I said above, those who feel good when they dressed well. Hahaha but I was too impressed by myself but others weren't!  Whatever.

Just try it next time, go to the shopping mall and look around, and think about it, which part is the part that you first look at on others. Because you never know until you experience it by yourself, it can be different than what you expect.

Expectations are way off than what happened.

And they always did.

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Another short entry.. feel bad yet happy because writing does make me feel better.

If only I can use a real pen to write my next entry. -.-

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There are no adjectives for distance, because in the end it's either you reached or not.

Beauty is not just skin deep ( 1 )

After days, the re-think process kept on going about this topic, and I don't know why.

There was a time when they said beauty is just skin deep. But hey, how thick is the skin? Do you mind to give me an actual answer? 

I'm guessing that you don't know the answer. ( Not that everyone doesn't know the answer, if you're a bio student or whatever medic kind of explorer, probably you will know, whatever. ) Yea, it just a thin later that cover the whole body, largest organ on human, first line of defense against diseases. To make sure you know more, click the link below to wikipedia to take a look how they introduce skin.

Skin 'searched' in Wikipedia 

And after I searched it, I realise the thickest skin found on human body is at the sole, which is about 4 mm thick, isn't it impressive? Such a thin layer of dead cells but still doing such a big job for us from getting ourselves into a danger exposed area.

By the way I also saw that the thinnest skin on body is about 0.5 mm.

No matter which part of the skin it is, it just less than 1 cm which is just a super tiny amount. And with no reason, kinda lot of people started to say that beauty is just skin deep.

Yes, I do know that it's an adjective, just to exaggerate how shallow are those people who only look at the appearence of someone. 

But what I know in my understanding is

Beauty simply more than 4 mm.( Referring to the thickest part of skin found on body, whatever. )

You don't know how much effort others put into himself or herself to build up his or her own personality and create the image for himself or herself, it's not a process that only takes 5 minutes, you thought you can download " Beauty " from internet with your high speed unifi and install it on your body?

Guess that you can't, if you can make it, show it to me please, I'm eagerly to see how it works.

Maybe you can say that, :" Aiya, thay already so handsome and pretty since they are young, so there's nothing to be done because they used to be so good in looking. "

Wth? You thought appearence is so easy to keep in fresh? Even fruits got rotten within days, and dead cells can stay how fresh?

They are just a group of people who put much more effort than you to keep himself or herself in the beauty state. And you, you don't even put a single second to make yourself better but judge on those who work for themselves for such a great and long time. Who do you think you're?

I know I'm so shit in looking, I always said that, and kinda small amount of people told me that, whatever. But no matter how it is, it hurts when someone said that you're ugly. Hahaha guessed that I should smash my face on the road and get a plastic surgery to create a new face for me. 

But I'm not going to do that anyway. I'm guessing that there are quite an area of improvement can be done on me to make myself into a better one.

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Okay, enough for the ranting of the day, just being kinda emotion these few days.

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Anyway, beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Which means that the perception of beauty can be subjective. 

After all, you don't judge on others because you just don't put effort on yourself and you start to giving critics on them, it's not fair for them, for you, and for everyone.

By the way, you need to have faith on yourself, if you think that you look shit and there's nothing can be done, which mean you're done with the current state. Stop thinking the current but start to look forward, if you never let something go, you don't get a better one.

Again, beauty is much more than saying someone is shallow in mind, human are organism with complex brain, and this simple piece of thought is much more superficial than those who cares about their beauty. 

No matter how it works, inner and the outer beauty are leaning each others. But within the first look, beauty does a big part of it, you can judge it with your bare eyes, yet don't even do that if you don't know who and how he/she is. 

Yeah, Jennifer Lopez once said that beauty is just skin deep, what's important is the balance of mind, body and spirit.

She is right yet wrong because beauty still lie in between mind, body and spirit.

Is there anyone who is with me?

What the customers said ( 3 ) : Madness in the store

Here comes to the another historical moment of me and my working days. Sorry for the neglecting of didn't update my blog with entries, but actually I'm working on others so no worries and I'm still safe and sound and continueing my service to entertain you. LOL wth am I saying?

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Here comes to the fitting session. Usually when you go for a shopping on clothes, there will be at least one or two workers at there serving you by removing the hangers and giving you a number card which indicated the number of clothes that you're trying. This is to prevent you from stealing clothes, I'm telling the truth, don't doubt on me. Haha

So below is two of the stories when I'm doing the fitting work.

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( 1 )

There was a bunch of people coming into the fitting room, considered as men and women because they were youngsters with tattoos and bright hair colours.

Man 1 : Get me another size, this is too small!

Woman 1 : Walao, your own size you don't know meh?

Man 2 : He fat liao la, of course cannot fit! Hahaha

Man 1 : *** what the *** you said?! I'm not lo! Hahaha

Woman 2 : Oi, faster go get another one la! Don't waste my time!!

Man 3 : Aiyo, I go la..

*waiting...*

Man 3 : Nah, faster try la.

Man 1 : *close the door while trying*

Woman 1 : *knock the door* oi oi oi, faster faster! HAHAHA

Man 1 : This one cannot la!!!

Woman 1 : Walao, don't waste my time leh!

Man 1 : *open the door* you all see yourself!

Everyone : *peek*

Man 2 : Walao, what size you take oh?

Man 3 : Simply take one lo! HAHAHAHAHA

Woman 2 : Faster take off la, go change another size.

Man 1 : *start to unzip without closing the door* *only on his t-shirt and brief*
Man 2 : Oi oi oi, he is looking at you ah, close the door la.

Me : Hahahahaha *wondering why a fat guy dare to do this in the public* (no offence, just simply cannot accept his action)

Man 1 : Nah, I wanna show you my big ****! *start to show his body to my direction*

Me : *wtf?!* *luckily he is still wearing his t-shirt and brief!!!*

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( 2 )

Actually I really don't mind to see your body but hey, this is public, not the beach or swimming pool.

Sometimes, they just don't get it, fitting room is for those to fit themselves and see whether the clothes is suitable for them or not.

The fitting shift at my work place change according hour, everyone get a chance to go to the fitting room actually. 

So when the time was ticking to the end of one of the hour (lol, I forgot which), it went to my turn and another staff to do the fitting work.

Staff 1 : Eh, Khai Wen, ask Kim together, your turn already.

Me : *call Kim* Okay okay.

Kim : Faster count the cards. ( We need to check the number of the cards to make sure the number of people in the fitting room is correct. )

Me : Eh, why got extra one?!

Staff 1 : Ohhh, *whispering* you all see the first room? Just now two people go inside until now haven't come out.

Kim : Huh? When? 

Staff 1 : About 15 minutes ago la, I don't really remember. Haha

Me : Aiya, nevermind la.

*after half an hour*

Me : Walao eh, they haven't come out!

Kim : HUH?! Still inside ah? Wah, so pro leh, the space so small.

Me : LOL ya lo, and then the fitting so hot some more, they still can tahan ah? Haha

Kim : Aiyo, maybe they fainted? If fainted then very troublesome leh!

Me : Cannot be la...

*5 seconds later*

Me : Eh, we go knock the door?

Kim : You're mad is it? Hahaha

Kim : *use a little higher volume* Eh eh eh, the people inside, you all okay mah, need me to call the ambulance?

Me : LOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOL faster stop la!!

Kim : We must do in this way, later they faint very troublesome one. Hahahaha

I really think that they heard the chat, but then who cares? LOL

They only came out after another 15 minutes, so we're guessing that they spent about 50 minutes inside a single room which is stuffy, hot, tiny, and with fragile walls. LOL

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I'm doing it in the right way, because I don't lie.

I really miss you,

this time I don't wanna lie anymore,

because the outcome won't be real in either way.

What the customers said ( 2 ) : The Outrageous Version

So the customers got mad again. I don't really get them for their non-logical actions that really violates my perspective on morality. LOL

As you all know, ( if you don't know, come on, kindly open your eyes next time! ), food and drinks are not allowed to be brought into anywhere that sells clothes. The sign board is so obvious, hanging at the entrance of every store.

No matter how the sign looks like, don't you try to tell me that you can't get what it means!

I wanna share some outrageous conversation of me and those customers who actually really cannot get the meaning.

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So usually what F.O.S did was asking the customers to leave their drinks at the counter and collect them after they finished their shopping, it's reasonable right?

Me : * spotted an aunty who carry a huge traveler bag ( those sliding type ) and holding a cup of bubble tea while chatting on phone * Miss, sorry ya, drinks are not allowed.

Outrageous aunty : What? I'm not drinking leh!

Me : Okay then. * wtf, you thought I'm blind?! *

...*watching her*...

Outrageous aunty : * Drink her freaking bubble tea * * Talking on her phone with a dialect that I don't understand *

Me : Sorry ya, drinks are not allowed, I'll put it to the counter and you can collect it later.

Outrageous aunty : What??! *scream* I never drink leh, I'm just holding it!!!

 Me : But we got sign board showed that drinks are not allow, so I'm sorry, I will help you to put it to the counter first.

Outrageous aunty : NEVERMIND, THANK YOU! * walk out F.O.S with a indistinct smile that really annoys me!!!!!!!! *

Conclusion : If you thought that I'm blind, I'm sorry to say that I'm not.

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Well, my conclusion above is like so meaningless. Hahaha but you know what? This kind of human doesn't appear alone sometimes!

Two aunties : * walk around * eh, this one quite nice leh!

Me : * spotted two Starbucks * Sorry miss, drinks are not allowed.

One of the aunty : We're not drinking leh! *scream*

Me : But the store's policy stated that customers cannot bring drinks inside. I can help you to put them at the counter first.

The same aunty : But we are just holding it. *her bullshit face really hits me!*

Another better aunty : Aiyo, just give him la. -.-

Me : *take over their Starbucks*

Two of them : *whispering* walao.. blah blah blah.

Facepalm them if I could.

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After two of the bad incidents, luckily there's something nice during the days of working in F.O.S.

That day, a pair of couple was shopping around and they spotted those socks which I personally think that it's quite good in quality.

Bf : Eh sorry ah, this socks are for male or female?

Me : * actually I'm not sure about it too but they seems unisex * ermmm, this one male and female also can wear one.

Gf : See? I already told you what.

Bf : Hmm, then ah gua also can wear?

Me :*wth* erm.. you can try to wear them. *LOL*

Three of us : HAHAHAHAHA

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Lesson of the day : Don't ever bring food and drinks if you wanna shop for clothes, or you just get hated.

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Sometimes we only see the bad days because they are the most obvious part in our life.

Go to hell, bad days.

 

与 Ryan Chiu 的访谈 ; Interview with Ryan Chiu! Part 2

For Part 1, do click on the link below!

Interview with Ryan Chiu Part 1

I wanna make a disclaimer on this first, all the sentences and words are altered by me upon my understanding on Ryan's sentences and words.

下面的句子与文字都是经过我的更改，全部都是依照我的理解能力和 Ryan 告诉我的一切。

I will do this in two version, which are the Chinese and English. For English, kindly scroll down to the line of seperation.

这篇访谈将有两个版本，英文版本在华文版的分界线以下。

Behind the scene at the bottom of this entry. :)
幕后花絮在下面！

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This time is the interview of me and Ryan Chiu for his first ever micro film, Afraid of Love which gonna premiere soon online, check out the time in my interview with him!

为了宣传 Ryan Chiu 第一部影视作品，« 怕了•爱情»，我访问了导演也就是他本人亦更加了解整个拍摄过程和关于导演的一些故事。

For Part 1 of the interview, click the link below.
若想了解访谈的准备过程，可以按下面。 LOL

Interview with Ryan Chiu Part 1
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Who is Ryan Chiu?

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(1) 与 Ryan 的一切

 你现在几岁？ 从事什么行业？之前又是什么行业？

 我今年22岁，是名摄影师，在这之前也是从事一样的行业。 

为什么会选择这个行业？

 因为我不喜欢上学，当我17岁时读到中五就没有读书了。那是妈妈一直希望我当个白领族，可是我不喜欢这种朝九晚五的工作，每天重复一样的事所以就找了摄影 师助理的工作。一开始不是因为爱好，而是为了找份工，可是之后就爱上了摄影。一直相当个时尚摄影师，希望有成功的一天。 

你是哪里人？ 单身吗？ 

我原籍怡保，现在不是单身。

 家里有几个人啊？ 

父母加上兄弟姐妹有7个人。

你的爱好是什么？平时最常做的是什么？ 

我喜欢电影，电影是我生命的一部分，我时常看电影的。

 那你对未来有什么打算？

 我希望能够出国到英国去进修摄影，当然我也希望能够参与更多的电影制做与拍摄。

这次拍摄微电影的原因及灵感是什么？ 

其实我的一只眼睛从小视力就不好了，在两年前我又遇上了一场车祸，导致我的眼角膜破损。现在我看著你其实前面是有两条线的。我的医生告诉我我的眼角膜随时 可能会掉出来，也就是代表我的一只眼睛随时会瞎，就算有人捐赠眼角膜也起不了什么作用，因为我的视力神经已经有创伤，实力一天比一天差，迟早有一天我还是 会瞎的… 所以在那之前，我希望能够完成我想做的事。 

(2) 微电影与它的故事 

This is officially from Ryan Chiu. 

From Prince Sam's YouTube channel. 

在预告片中有提到这个微电影是真是故事改编，那你是这个故事的主角？ 

对，我是故事主角。其实这个故事是改编自我人生中的一些事情，但是在电影中我加入了一些我的想像。 

既然你本身就是故事主角，那你为什么不自己出演主角的角色？ 

其实我从来就没有想过想要演出，毕竟自己没有长的很帅，不习惯上镜。 

还有什么想要补充的吗？ 

这个微电影不是商业化的制做，原本也没有想过要接受这个访谈，因为害怕成品没有达到你们的期望，毕竟没有用最好的器材，也没有华丽的场景。

 还有吖，这个故事已经想了一年了。我选择这个故事的原因是因为本身是同性恋，同性恋的生活就好像一个循环，才见面就说我爱你，然后发生关系，接著分手。原 本这个故事的结局是很伤心的，可是我想了又想，改了又改，自己也发现其实朋友圈中也有一些一开始就一见锺情，发生关系，可是他们也在一起了很多年，所以我 改了又改，决定把它换成美丽的结局。 

 (3) 拍摄；制做；后续 

你用的是什么摄影器材？ 

是我自己的 Nikon D90。 

整个拍摄花了多少钱？是否有找赞助商？ 

大约花了几百块吧，因为主角特地从槟城下来，所以补了交通费给他。我没有找赞助。

去了哪里拍摄这个微电影？ 

在预告片里可以看到新加坡，Desaru 和士乃机场，此外还有到了一些新山的一些地方拍摄这次的微电影。 

为什么选择这些地方？ 

剧情需要。 

整个拍摄花了多少时间？

 一个星期。 (我吓到，因为也太快了吧？！) 

那你是如何选择两位主角？ 

通过 Facebook, 原本我也是不认识他们的。

 那两位主角 ( Prince Sam & Ethan) 都是自愿演出？

 对， Prince Sam 也是特地从槟城下来这里。

 怎么会选择这两位？

 Prince Sam 原本就是一位舞蹈员，非常有活力，也不会对镜头默生所以选择了他。 (我好像忘了问 Ethan, paiseh) 

整个成果有达到你的要求吗？

还好叻，毕竟没有使用最好的器材，收音也不好。

 为什么后续制作都一手包办？

 因为没有想过要花钱亲。 

(4) 后记

 如果有机会，还会想拍摄微电影吗？

 当然！ 

那下次的故事会是什么？一样选择同性恋题材吗？

 有可能，不过我也想试试恐怖片的题材。

整个拍摄的感受是如何？ 

很累，因为很多突发状况要去协调，又要保持专注的状态，所以很累啊。 

在预告片中有提到这个微电影将在五月网络首映，有确切的日期了吗？

应该会在 26/5 献映。 

你希望这个微电影的观众群是哪些人？

当然是同性恋，不过我也想带出真爱存在。 

有什么想对那些想看你的微电影的人说吗？ 

嗯… « 怕了•爱情» 只是一个有梦想的男孩想完成自己的梦想，他不是用最好的器材，收音素质也不好，可是它是一个梦想的成果。当然希望大家喜欢。 :) 

对了，为什么叫做 « 怕了•爱情» ？ 

哈哈哈，因为怕了爱情吖…

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(1) The story of Ryan and the background of everything.

How old are you? What's your current job? And what's your previous job?

I'm 22, currently work as a photographer, also the same as my previous job.

Why are you working as a photographer?

I don't like to study, I only study until I'm 17 which is Form 5. My mum wants me to work in a office but I don't like to repeat the same thing everyday so after SPM I worked as a photographer assistant not because I like photographing but need to get a job. But afterwards, I'm in love with photography and always wanna be a fashion photographer but not so successful, really hope to become one no matter what.

Where are you from? Are you single or attached?

I'm originated from Ipoh but my family already moved to Jb for quite a time. I'm attached.

How many people are there in your family?

Besides of my parents, I've two sisters and two brothers.

What is your hobby? What are the things that you're in love in doing?

I love to watch movies. Movie is like a part of my life, I always watch movie at least once in a week.

What's your future planning?

I wanna go further for photographing, if there's a chance, I wanna go UK to study in photography.

And really wish to take part in some production of movies no matter what job is it.

What is your inspiration that makes you wanna do this micro film?

Actually my right eye suffered severe problems. About two years ago, I met a road accident and my cornea was broken, and now my vision for the right side is always with two lines there because of my  broken cornea. And my doctor told me that my cornea can drop off in any moment which means I will be blind. Even if there is a donation of cornea, it will be helpless because my eye sight nervous system is damaged because of the accident, when time gone by, I will be blind on one side one day. So I decided to do whatever I want to do before I become blind.

(2) The story line and the micro film.

In the trailer, it's said that the micro film is based on a true story, so are you the main lead of the story?

Yes, I'm. The story is based some incidents happened throughout my life, but in the micro film, I added some imaginations so it's partly true.

Since the story is yours, why don't you just act it yourself?

Hmm.. I think that I'm not suitable in acting, I'm not handsome and never think of going on screen.

Anything wanna add on?

This micro film is totally not commercial at all, initially I never think of doing this interview because I'm afraid that the micro film is so much further from the expectation, it's not using the best materials and not the best system, thus the interface is not luxury.

Oh ya, the story took me one year to think of, the reason of using this story is because I'm gay, and the life of homosexual mostly is like saying I love you when you first known him, then the relationship starts after having sex and doesn't last long. Initially the end of the story is very sad, but then after keep on thinking of it, I realized that not all relationship in homosexual won't last long. I've friends who starts their relationship after they have sex at the first time they met but then they already being together for years, so I keep on changing it for like thousands times and lastly make it a happy ending.

(3) The filming and editing and the production.

What is the camera you used to film the micro film?

I'm using Nikon D90 which is my own.

Does the micro film cost you a lot? Did you find any sponsorship?

No, the money needed is only on the transportation fee for the actors. It costs me a few hundreds.

And I didn't look for any sponsorship.

What are the places you went for the micro film?

We went to Singapore, Desaru, Senai Airport which you can see in the trailer and a few places in JB. Actually I wanna film some scene in the JB Central but for some reasons, I can't make it, so just change the plan and the story in a sudden.

Why are you choosing all these places?

Hmm, it's because of the story line.

How long to finish filming the whole thing?

One week. * I was shock because I expect more!*

How you choose the two main leads?

Actually it's all through Facebook because at first I don't know them.

So Prince Sam and Ethan are willingly taking part in this??

Yes, Prince Sam even travel all the way from Penang for this.

Why are you choosing these two for the main leads?

Prince Sam is someone active, he is a dancer and not shy in front the camera. * I think I forgot to ask about Ethan ><*

Is the end product same as your expectation?

Hmm.. no. Quite disappointed because of the quality of the sound as I'm not using professional materials.

Why you wanna do all the editing process?

Because I never think of wasting money on hiring others to do it.

(4) Miscellanous

If there's another chance, will you make another micro film?

Yes, definitely yes.

So what will be the content? Will it be homosexual again?

Maybe, but I also try some horror story line.

What is the overall feeling throughout the filming process?

It's very tiring, need to think a lot because there are things keep on happening and you need to know how to handle it, and it just make me exhausted to keep myself focus.

In the trailer, it's said that the micro film will be on internet in May, so is there an actual date?

Probably on 26 of May.

Who are the people that you wish them to watch this micro film?

Of course, gay, but I'm just trying to let the society see that even homosexual, true love can exist.

Is there anything you wanna say to those who are waiting to watch your micro film?

Hmm.. Afraid of Love is just a micro film that shoot by a boy that has a dream and wanna fulfill his dream, it's not using the best camera, it's not using all the professional things and the quality of sound is not the best too.

Oh ya, why it's called Afraid of Love?
Hahaha.. because I'm afraid of love.

 

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 Some behind the scenes..

From Price Sam's YouTube Channel.

For more, just search « 怕了•爱情» in YouTube.

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我本身对这个微电影是蛮期待的，虽然同性恋在本地还不是大众都能接受的一群，可是如果拿掉性别，爱情剩下的还有什么？ 为什么不把观点放在更客观的角度去想像呢？


有梦想的人，是最伟大的。 :)

When no is not an option.

It's all started after I started my lifeless life after I got back from Langkawi with my friends, it was quite a great time for me but bad time for my parents. They totally found no reasons for me to stuck at home for all the time and kept on going out with friends and wasting money. Even I thought of the same, but please, I don't really wanna go for a job or whatever it was.

Then Lihui came back from KL because of her holidays and she asked me out. For someone who stuck at home for most of the time, I don't really mind to go out and I could meet my friends, why not? So I went to City Square Johor Bahru and after we met up, we went to F.O.S to see my secondary friends who were still working at there recently ( but already passed their resign letter ),and finally it all started.

Pangli told me the salary for part-time job and I found it quite nice actually, and Lihui was at a side kept on asking me to get a job. Lol so I ended up to ask my mum about this after I went home. Before this, she already asked me to get a job for quite a time, but I got a lot of hesitation because I'm a lazy pig head.

BUT, MONEY HAD TURNED INTO THE REASON FOR ME TO GO FOR THIS JOB.

Well, I felt quite guilty at that time for using my parents' money for everything, it just didn't make any sense because I was so lazy to go for work but active in all outing, so why not?

So I went to this job at F.O.S and turned into a part-time-clothes-folder, but recently I found that I don't really fold a lot since there's not a lot that need to be folded. And I don't know why, sometimes after we get used to see things that look like a lot, we started to realise how small they are.

Why I named this post as the tittle? I guessed it's why I don't really love my job except some part of it, like those friends I know from there and some jokes and laughters that I enjoyed. I went for this job was because I couldn't just stay at home until July. I had a hard time with this job but I never quit it was because I couldn't resign it so easily.

It's all because I didn't really have a ' NO ' in my choices.

Soon, my current supervisor would be changed, they were making changes throughout the store. Hopefully my information was correct which was I was going to stay at my original position. But the bad news was it would be a miserable life afterwards. Facing people that you used to hate and need to fake a smile for all the time just to make them felt that I'm not so unhappy as what I really felt.

It's hard but as the same, I couldn't say no, it's not an option because life wasn't created by me, it's a journey that thousands of things happened and I wasn't the one who has the ability to control them. That's why I thought I should make myself more easier instead of creating more and more difficulties that never make my life easier.

When am I going to resign from this?

A good question, and hard to be answered.

" I had a dream my life would be, so different from this hell I'm living, so different from now what it seemed, life has killed the dream I dream. " - Les Miserables

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Interview post in progress...